Rika Jarna

[malleus]

It has been a few days since the voice of the lady luck has spoken to me, in fact she has not spoke to me at all since I entered her temple *Rika thought to herself. *

This is kind of weird, I am so use to her voice coming to me at night or at dire time.
Then again not much have happened lately anyway, why would the lady bother with her focus when there is no need for it.

I have tried spending time at the altar, trying to focus my mind, and I swear I heard a faint whisper, but it may just have the noise of the people outside.

It is nice in here *Rika looks around at he Suzail temple to Tymora* yes it really is nice in here.
Its clean people are kind and helpful, the other clerics have done so much to help me focus on the blessing of the lady.

They have told me how she speaks to them to every now and then, but It seems she has spoken to me way more then to them, but then again, I am the lucky one, the lady told me that herself.

Maybe I need to prove to her that I am still here to listen… but I made a promise… yes…. I don’t lie… I am not a liar..

I do wonder when my friends will turn up again.. yes.. they are my friends.. they only did it to help me… yes trying to cut of my hand was for my own safety… she told me that.. they would not harm me if it wasn’t…

I have never had friends before but they seem kind.. taking me to the enclave and putting me in that dark room was for the best .. wasn’t it? … yes it was for my own best… they tried to help me I am sure of it…

*her mind flashes back to the dark room full of whispers and the alter of Shar, to the tomb and the knife, to the feeling of panic and fear like she had never know it before.. to the frustration and sadness and the feeling of betrayal and the burst of shadow that kept her safe in the end*

Yes the lady will help me if I ever need her again… I will ask the other clerics what blessings we normally use here.. and I will hide the shadows away.. deep inside where they belong deep in a vault in the deepest cave of my mind..

*Rika looks up from the back row of the temple. Taking in the view of the statue to the lady luck.
She closes her book on lore of Tymora and looks around*

I think its time to see if the kids outside the temple needs food or water.. they have been playing in the streets all day. *she says to herself as she leaves the center of the temple*

[malleus]

*Rika looks out over the city of Suzail from her room on the top floor of the Tymora temple. *

*The sun is about to set as she gets down on her knees and closes her eyes*

I need guidance, I am lost I am scared, and I don’t know what to do or whom to trust.

It has been weeks now without me being scared, I have been happy, I have friends now, friends that trust me and like me for who I am and not who I was or what I have done.

I will do anything and give anything not to lose them also, I can not stand the thought of more lose now.

The day started out by someone needing me… like really needing “my” help.. and I did it, I helped her hide and took her to a place where she will be safe.

Later that day I even got my first kiss, it was from a paladin of Torm called Arika, and she was kind to me and Keerla, telling us all kind of things about girls and boys and kissing and stuff.

Later on that afternoon I lost focus, I lost control of “it” for just one moment, I had to get a friend to safety and I made a mistake, now more people know about my past, and they all say the same thing… but I don’t even know what this Shar really is but everyone tells me that it is in me and even though I don’t mean to, it is still bad and will bring bad things in to my friends life’s.

They made me take of all my cloth in a bar, and looked me over for some marks, saying stuff like I was a vessel or an agent for it. And I don’t even know what that is, but it sounds bad.

Now they tell me I can’t use blessings anymore, not even to help anyone, until I have spoken to someone in Immersea called the moon maiden and I don’t know who that is ether, but I will go there first thing in the morning, yes, I will go and have a talk with them.

I wonder what Hadriane and mister Kharne would say. maybe I should wait for them to come with me.

Hadriane did tell me that other people would harm me if they knew and would not be so understanding, yes, I will talk with them first before I go to Immersea.

*Rika stands up and walk over to her bed she takes of her Robe and puts the neckless with the symbol of Tymora on the bedpost before she lays down in the bed and closes her eyes*



//(if there is a priest/priestess or any other holy person of Selune out there that wants to help me in some RP please send me a PM)//

[malleus]

What a weird time:

*Rika walks around her room slowly packing her things talking to herself in the process*

It has been very weird lately… yes it has hasn’t it.. so many new things has happened.

I have a boyfriend now.. Kamon he is so kind, and strong, and brave and he is a priest to.. mhm and he will always help me.. he said so himself… my god how I miss him already..


*she folds a dress up and gently puts it in her bag*

And Arika lets me lead our trips now.. yes but she did say that if something gos wrong it’s the leaders fault.. yes I know but I am sure I can keep them safe and strong.. yes as long as they are “all” together we will be fine..

*finds a few books on the human anatomy and puts them in the bag as well*

I am still glad that Samantha told us that is wasn’t this lady of loss that’s with us.. but we need to find out what it is then.. but I am sure I know what to do.. yes I have a plan now.. and it will all be okey.. mhm I am sure of that..

*folds a spare green priestess robe and puts it in her bag also*

This will have to do for now.. it will be fun to live in the forest town for a change… yes it will be nice to get out of the city.. I am sure mister Kharne will like to visit me in Waymoot… maybe Hadriane can help the farmers there to…

*looks around the empty room with a smile*

Oh yes, I need to say goodbye to Sanee also, She said would still send me tasks and information from other adventures… maybe I can send her some back..

*closes the door to her old room and leaves the upper floor of the temple for the last time*

[malleus]

The darkest hour:

*Rika can be seen working around the temple of Waymoot, making food for travelers or making bandages for the temple shop. *

*She does not seem to pray much or take part in mass*

*She is not talking to anyone and walking away if anyone tries to make conversation with her. *

*She does however seem to have long talks with herself under muttered breath head bobbing from side to side. *

*Her skin is pale, and she has dark bags under her eyes as if she has not slept for a long time, her fingers have a slight tremble to them as she does her daily tasks, and she seems to be deep in thoughts. *

*at night she would curl up in her bed staring into the darkness whispering to herself*