My Goodbye.

[♥Zach♥]

I'm really sorry to hear that, I realy hope everything gets better.

[mourndarkv]

I am sorry to see you go, the life you have breathed into your personas here have been a joy to know, as you have been as well.

The truth of the world is always present around us though, and I wish you luck with yours. Many of us use these games as a retreat from what ails us. An escape from the stresses of life and reality of it. Whie I hope the circle of your life brings you back to us, I undertand your need to deal with what is real first.

A brillant and humorous mind, and a talent for writing. Tremain will miss your long debates, I can recall the one we had on your very first night here. The Laws of Cormyr. It is very real in my mind as these two youngsters debated things they barely understood. Such things are the reasons I play, I will miss you.

To know you has been my pleasure. A gift that cannot be taken away forever, because it has already been given, and memories are ours to keep. Be well Yoda. I hope you find what you seek in your real life, friends and family.. and many reasons to smile.

[Boogiedk]

Stay safe . . And do take care of yourself


Good luck with your life and I sincerely hope , even if I didnt know you that well , that things work out for you

Be Good
B.

[hexer]

I wish you the best and truely hope that things turn around and start looking up for you. You're a great player and I hate to see you go, but you have to do what you have to do, right? Again, I hope it turns out okay. And, remember, you're always welcome here and, even if you're afraid you might get too into the game, visits are always nice.

Best wishes,

Alex

[Aodhan the Unusual]

At one time I too retreated into my machine at every chance I got. Fortunately a random occurence and a night of karaoke fixed that for me. Now I'm on a bowling league with my co-workers, LARP, go to Rocky Horror... Heck, I even go out to a club every so often and I hate them with a passion. However, we all grow and change.

I know about the 'evils' of depression as I too suffer from it. THe only thing to help make it better (besides medication which can actually increase symptoms at times) is supporting friends, family, and if you're lucky enough, significant other. Talk to them, or if not them, a pet helps. Of course going through fish every couple of months can be tiresome, but... It's someone to talk to.

We're here for ya girl. Heck, if you want a supporting ear (this goes for anyone) feel free to leave me a message at any time. If nothing else, I've been told I'm a really good sounding board for problems. ;D

Take care of yourself and come back to, if not visit, post an update. I'd hate losing you for good, even if we don't really know each other.

[ShadowCatJen]

You have to do what you have to do.

You'll certainly be missed around here, but I don't think there's a single one of us here that will not understand why you have to go. Playing online is an addiction that does come with a great deal of what most addictions can lead to.

I almost got to that very same point that you are at right now. It hurts to realize that something you enjoy is actually hurting others around you. It's a step in the right direction that you are pulling yourself away from this.

Good luck and hang tough, you'll come out alright in the end.

[sheepdog]

Brave message
Full of Insight
and worrying too!
find and use support in the real world
best wishes from a stranger

[soulfien]

I've been there. It took a lot to pull me out of it too.

Real life comes first and though I'll miss you, I'd rather know that you're doing what you have to do instead of playing here.

[DM Grizwald]

I dont know what to say....only that i hope things turn around. You will be missed.

If you need anything just leave a message

this goes for anyone...my email is [e-mail]

[Keetena]

As a strange, as a scientist, as someone who already cared of drugaddictive people, I do think I can understand your words... the game is an addiction as alcohool, or cigar, there is no mid terms in such problems, I'm an addicted in NWN, or the machine as well... but this is part of the therapy I decided do years ago when I was drinking more than my health could support (substition therapy). Still this generates problems to my personal life, as the years are passing I continue cutting more and more of my already to much restricted personal life, divided between the hours in job and the hours in game, so believe me, I understand your need of leave the game. We can play without be addictve, or drink withou be alcoholist, but if you suspect you are, so better you take a decision as yours... I'm not the religious type, but if I were to pray I should remenber you, strange, take care and restart your life from now, it's never late to this.

And to all of you, I ever wished and always will wish you play for fun and pass time, but never forgot how important are the things in real life, no game can be sweet as the hug of someone you care, no graphics can reproduce the smell and smootheness of a single rose, and no histories are more interesting than the history of your own lives. I love you all and wish the best, ever.

[♥Zach♥]

Getting all kissy lovey, makes me want to cry the forum is one big family.

Yeah, i'll be honest. I may not have lost girlfriends to NWN but I can understand the depression you feel, depression hurts both mentaly and physicly, makes you feel old weak and you just dont care. losing girlfriends I dated for a long time hurt really bad.

I sunk into a dark phase in life, but without medication I faught it head on, yeah it's hard...very, I ditched the goth clothes threw out the death metal, put a smile on my face, did not act like somone I was not. yeah it's sounds corny but it works. You were on the right track with eating right, with the trainer, with getting away from the game, keep on the road to happyness.

I dont want to press any form of religion on you and dont take it the wrong way. If you have a religion it's always nice to come to them, they never turn down a time to lend an air to your troubles. it's a source to draw strength from. I did just that, it helps me everyday knowing that somone is watching over me. ;D that and good friends.


This stuff, just numbs the pain. dose not make the pain go away, makes it worse. not even good to start with when drank in large amounts, makes you slow, very sloooow. Easy to take advantage of. Kills your health, kills people around you.

in the words of my grandfather while still suffering from diabeties, and other problems caused from drinking and not taking care of him self.

"I would have taken better care of my self having known I would live this long."

The true answer to happieness comes from in you, not a can ;D

[Retired DM Gallin]

Good luck and take care. If you ever change your mind, you're always welcome here, but in the mean time, I'm rooting for you. I wish you the best in everything you do.

~Corey

[DM Richard (Retired)]

Well I can certainly relate to you and this situation.

When I wake up in the morning I log on to check the forums.

I come home for lunch and check the forums and if I have time left I play. MOST of the time I actually eat lunch too.

When I come home after work I walk straight to the computer and check the forums then log on to play or DM.

If I leave on vacation I take a laptop and log on if possible to check on things or play when at the hotel at night.

Think it sounds bad now? I was worse several years ago. I've stopped checking anything to do with NWN while at work. I take breaks now to spend time with my wife. I watch movies or read sometimes.

It sounds like you have a clear plan. You understand the issue. And any decision you make will be whole heartedly supported by your friends here. Do what is best for you. Life is full of change, surprise, and unpredictability. Don't count anything as lost and work toward what will make you happy.

I wish you the best!
DM Richard

[breckis]

I'll miss the long and awkward moments my dwarf has had with you. I do hope that you get better, I suffer from deppresion to a lesser extent. I drift from one small addiction to another, video games, books, role playing, this forum, and this game (though because of these I've never had a girlfriend).

You are one of those few people that you can't stay mad at, and know when you're not around. I'll miss you, not as a pc, but as a person. See yah round, and hopefully you'll get over all this. And be happy.

[marklar]

i'm sorry to hear about that, i hope all goes well for you...this reminds me of some one, though i'd prefer not to say, i've seen what this can do, i think you've made one of the biggest steps. good luck and all the best.

[MTGPackFoils]

I'm not sure if we ever met as our characters online, but either way I do send you my sincerest empathy in regards to this situation.

I never thought I would play MMOs of any kind, and when I got my PC 2 years ago I thought I would get NWN and play the offline game...I was wrong. I have played online A LOT since then, pulling myself away from it 2 times only to come back.

This is escapism at it's finest...so I understand that.

I also understand depression. While not officially diagnosed with it by a doctor I have had many periods where I am depressed...a lot of that comes from my horrible marriage.

I've been married for 10 years, have a 10 year old daughter, and for the last 8 or so my wife has been working 2nd shift and is not here when I am home. She works hard, but we have no relationship. I have almost left her because of this...so believe me...when I read this initial post I did a lot...A LOT...of nodding.

The few things I have found some comfort in:
my daughter, music, and DnD (in all it's forms)

I hope you find the peace you seek...be it on here with us or not.

[Munroe]

I usually don't read the Off topic Fun! forum so I missed this for a while.

Sorry to hear about you going. I know the feeling. I stopped playing NWN in March 2004 and didn't play much for about four months, then I played on an RP Lite server so I didn't feel compelled to be around all the time. Now I find myself playing almost every day again, but at least it isn't in 18 hour sessions like I used to play.

[sneakingyoda]

Hey guys, I said I would give you an update a week later, and here I am- updating! As things stand, Haden – My fiancé- is now once again engaged to me. He came around last Saturday and we’ve been talking on and off about it all week.

But as I said before, I didn’t give up FRC because of him. It was the event that smacked me around a bit, but my reasons for giving up FRC were for myself. So as it stands, a week later, I am still not returning to the game even though my relationship has been mended.

All the PM’s from people were touching. All the advice was worth thinking about.

I actually had a dream about FRC last night, and basically it was along the lines of me wishing I could have the best of both worlds. I really do miss the community, but I think- in the end- this is the correct choice.

So, I’ll be working with Kelric on the reasons why Yulena traveled on. For those characters curious as to where she went, I’m hoping to at least provide a reason for it all. Have fun playing.

Oh! And I also play a good deal of WC3. So if you like WC3 and would like to play with me, I’ll be available on these boards for you to remain in contact with. As for other contact info- you can always reaching me via these addresses/IM names:

Sneakingyoda- AOL
9774484- ICQ
[e-mail]– MSN messenger (note, I do not ever check or use hotmail email. So don’t try to send me anything through that.)
sneakingyoda- Yahoo

Email:
[e-mail]

;D

[ShadowCatJen]

Great to hear things are going better for you. ^_^

I think, as been very much said, many of us understand why you have to move on and certainly do not blame you for doing so. We will, as also been stated many times, miss you greatly.

*big big hugs*

Try not to be tempted with coming back! It's an easy slip up to do especialy when depression sets in.

ArcadiaDragon and myself wish you the best of luck!

[Munroe]

So you say you play WCIII and you provide contact info, but where's your Battle.net account name? Mine is L.Talbot (all lowercase, I just capitalized so you could read it easier.) I play on US EAST when I play. (Is that Azeroth? I forget. It has been awhile.)

[sneakingyoda]

;D

Thats because I haven't played WC3 in so long that I'm not established on anything.

How about that.

My computer situation at home is still wonky too. My main computer is still in for repairs.